JJ: What are you frightened of? Why?

This question has a lot of layers. I am frightened of heights. Insanely frightened. I almost started bawling when my dumb date talked me into riding the Rocket at Lagoon years and years ago. And I'm scared of plenty of other superficial things.

But mostly I'm scared of something happening to my kids. I have been having some ridiculous panic attacks or anxiety (or whatever they actually are) at night. And every single time I'm gripped by irrational fear, it has to do with my kids. I always think someone is in my house and that they are after my children. I usually cannot go back to sleep until I visit each of their rooms and make sure they are tucked safely into bed.

I went through a horrible experience as a child and I worry so much about something similar happening to one of my boys. I just want them to be safe and healthy and happy. I know God won't give us more than we can handle, but I struggle with that sometimes when I look back at what I have been through. I lost my baby, Quentin, and I couldn't survive losing another one. It's a scary, scary thing to think about.

JJ: List at least three good qualities about yourself

I haven't done a Journal Jar in FOREVER! So I'm going to do a couple. If you don't remember, the question will be the title and I'll answer it in the post.

I am compassionate
I am funny
I am quick to forgive
I love others easily

Soccer Star Holden

Holden has started playing soccer (that's right, I am officially a soccer mom!). He had his first game yesterday and it was super fun to watch. Pretty much 8 kids chasing the soccer ball all around the field over and over again. Here are some of the pics.

Holden and his Bestie, Sofia.

If anyone ever wants to come watch a game just let me know and I can let you know the time for the week. They are always on Saturday morning.

Interview with a 2 year old

(picture is courtesy of my hellion child getting into the chocolate milk mix.)

And just for fun I decided to ask Beckett the same questions. We took a couple out because he really had no clue what I was talking about. But I'm still enjoying his answers.

1. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE T. V. SHOW? Curious George

2. WHAT DID YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST? Cereal

3. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Beckett (It's actually Archibald)

4. FAVORITE FOOD? Pizza

5. WHAT FOOD DO YOU DISLIKE? Pizza (that's right. It's the same answer)

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? Blue

7. FAVORITE LUNCH? Peanut Butter and Jelly

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO? Color


9. FAVORITE SPORT? Baseball Bees (he says this at least 15 times a day)

10. WHEN IS YOUR BIRTHDAY? Birthday Party

11. ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON OR A NIGHT PERSON? Night person

12. PETS: Yes. He then brought me his dog toy that the Easter Bunny brought him

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CANDY? Marshmallows


14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK? Night Night Book


15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE? Ben 10

Interview with a 4 1/2 year old!

I read these questions on a friend's blog and since I love hearing Holden's answers decided to ask him also. So here you go! I'm sure we'll ask again when he turns 5 (only 3 1/2 months!).

1. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE T. V. SHOW? Ben 10

2. WHAT DID YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST? Cinnamon Waffles

3. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Connor

4. FAVORITE FOOD? Eggs & Bacon

5. WHAT FOOD DO YOU DISLIKE? Spaghetti and hot dogs

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? Red

7. FAVORITE LUNCH? McDonald's (sigh)

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO? Play my video game all day and all night. (Just to be clear, this does NOT happen. Although he would like it to.)

9. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD ON VACATION, WHERE WOULD YOU GO? To the North Pole to see Santa

10. FAVORITE SPORT? NFL & Baseball

11. WHEN IS YOUR BIRTHDAY? November 9

12. ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON OR A NIGHT PERSON? Nocturnal

13. PETS: No.

14. ANY NEW AND EXCITING NEWS YOU'D LIKE TO SHARE WITH US? Yes. My news is about heroes. (he then rambled on for a few minutes.)

15. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP ? Fly airplanes & helicopters in the Army & shoot some guns

16. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CANDY? lollipops

17. WHERE IS THE FARTHEST YOU'VE EVER BEEN FROM HOME? The woods

18. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK? Book of Mormon

19. WHAT ARE YOU MOST PROUD OF? Playing outside

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE? Transformers

Slip 'n Slide!

Recently I got an amazing deal on a slip 'n slide so yesterday we decided to pull it out. It was lots of fun! However, Holden & Beckett just didn't "get it". So Tim had to put on the swimsuit and show them how it's done. Needless to say it was hilarious! A good time was had by all. And I'm so glad I had my camera so it will be remembered forever. Although I totally should have shot some video. That would have been even more fun.

Holden would run to the end of the slide, jump in the air and then step onto the slide. Then he would fall on his stomach. Tim and I couldn't stop laughing. It was really funny to watch.

Beckett mostly just walked down the middle. I think once or twice he laid down on his belly and then got super excited saying "I did it!"

And best of all, Tim showing them just how to work the slip 'n slide; camo hat and all.

There is also a little tunnel you can go through that will tell you exactly how fast you are going. That's definitely going up next time so we can get some scores for the fastest slider around, my awesome hubby, Tim.

Good Things Utah Again

In case you missed it today and are interested in watching, you can see my segment from Good Things Utah this morning. I think this was the most relaxed I've been yet. And the girls were super nice and chatty. It's always fun! Plus, I had a few friends in the audience and that always makes me more comfortable.